As promised, here I am with an update regarding my previous entry. 🙂 I just completed a lovely, relaxing yoga routine… and I am also happy to announce that I did attend a Meetup event yesterday. As unlikely as it seemed to find a local group of likeminded people interested in really deep conversation… it actually happened. Possibly because I just wasn’t willing to give up this time. It was a wonderfully nourishing get together, and I am very much looking forward to more.
What I want reflect on today, however, is how this amazingly positive experience seems to be the simply inevitable result of the recent changes in my general approach to life. I have spent the past few weeks focusing intently on the examination and “reprogramming” of various limiting beliefs – with the help of an amazing book I had found at a local esoteric bookstore. “Working with Chakras for Belief Change” by Nikki Gresham-Record. As well as another online course I am doing: Your Energy Codes: The Next Level of Energy Medicine, with Dr. Sue Morter. Several years ago, I completed a basic energy medicine course with Donna Eden and David Feinstein (through Mindvalley.com). I haven’t been particularly good at implementing its practices in my daily life (yes, you probably guessed it: lack of time!!!… ;-P), but I still couldn’t resist the temptation to take the concept of working with your life force energy to the next level. Which, as I am finding, is a lot more about a general life philosophy than about specific daily practices or “exercises” (though those are important, too). To put it in simplest terms, the goal is to “tune in” energetically into a higher soul vibration – which will automatically result in a different life experience. So perhaps this is what’s happening. I am being much more mindful about focusing on the positive aspects of life, the possibilities, the potential for growth and expansion etc.; rather than the problems, the limitations, the pesky daily “failures” and so on. (Someone – I forget who – said that there are no failures; there are only educational experiences. I am inclined to agree.) Theoretically, I’ve been working on this for the past few years already; but I think what has changed is that it has finally become a habit, a natural way of being that I no longer have to keep reminding myself to follow. I think I may have come to genuinely TRUST that “the universe has my back” – rather than simply wish it were so. 😉 It’s been a fluid, gradual change – and I don’t think I can attribute it to any single one personal growth training course or modality. It’s most likely the result of all of them, combined. Of sustained attention and focus over a length of time. So no matter how many of those learning experiences I have seemingly “failed” at over the course of the past few years, I have still been moving steadily forward. Some people grow and change within a single, soul-shattering moment; others take baby steps, with long detours along the way. 😉 But eventually, we all arrive where we’re supposed to. And that is the only thing that matters.
Another interesting “side effect” of those internal shifts seems to be a great increase in my intuitive abilities. I have been exploring various methods of divination: muscle testing, pendulum dowsing, oracle cards, the Tarot… and the more I explore, the more I become aware of simply “knowing” things, without even needing to ask a question. Of course, my rational mind still wants to deny this, or “rationalize it away”; but what has changed is that my rational mind is no longer the ultimate authority on what’s really going on in my life. And perhaps that is the greatest gift of all.