It’s been three months since I last updated this blog; and in those three months, nearly everything I was looking forward to seems to have disintegrated. First, my place of employment closed temporarily due to the pandemic; and so, any developments on that front have been put on hold. Second, the Meetup group I had such high hopes about was dissolved – also due to the pandemic. I am technically “in touch” with some members of said group; however, I feel we hadn’t had the time to build a strong enough rapport before everything turned “virtual”, and now most of us seem to lack the motivation to reach out to one another. Third, I have obviously failed to keep up my resolve to update these pages regularly, despite having a lot more “time” on my hands than before. Which only proves, once again, that “lack of time” to update was nothing but a lame excuse.

On the positive side, I have not lost my job or the income that it provides, despite the fact that “working from home” wasn’t an option. And for that, I am deeply grateful. Ironically, my biggest complaint about said job has always been the very limited amount of vacation time available – and so, being forced to stay at home for weeks, while still getting paid, has felt dangerously close to a dream come true.

Another thing I would never have expected was the recent reunion with two very dear old friends through a social media site. So while the abovementioned “new connections” don’t seem to be working very well anymore, some of the old ones are now refreshed and reinvigorated. Which probably would not have happened if so many of us weren’t “stuck at home”, looking for new ways to entertain ourselves online. 😉

In short, life is very different now from what it looked like at the beginning of the year, and I am reluctant to make any plans or promises regarding this blog anymore. I am still doing yoga more or less regularly, by the way; that is the one thing I have persisted in (admittedly, to my own surprise). I am also using this time to explore various topics of interest, like astrology and the Tarot (and let me just say I have a different perspective now on why the Tower card showed up in that reading I gave myself three months ago). Being the natural hermit that I am, I probably fare better in the “social distancing” context than most people; still, I am not immune to global upheaval that is affecting everyone around me, and I will also admit to deliberately avoiding some friends who talk mostly about how many people have died and how the world is surely coming to an end. I choose to consume plenty of inspirational/educational material, rather than what’s being fed to the less discerning public by the mainstream media. I know, on a deep level, that oftentimes things need to seemingly “get worse” before they get better, and we are most likely experiencing this on the global scale right now. But I do feel a little overwhelmed sometimes, regardless. So I am acknowledging that. And, perhaps, for now, that is enough.

6 thoughts on “The Tower Is Collapsing Now

  1. It is a great philosophy to look for what you can do, not what you can’t. There is a quote that goes something like, there is nothing so bad that you can’t find something good in it. All the best.

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      1. You are so right in that seeing the glass as half full, nit hal empty is an acquired skill. It requires not only a learning, but also I think, a certain attitude shift. Where they think negatively and worry constantly, it is so difficult to change because they don’t know how. Yet, if the person can be disciplined enough in forcing this attitude upon themselves, even if they don’t believe it at first, it will become more natural as time goes on and then eventually a habit. I don’t think anyone could do this is they don’t have the prerequisite attitude and determination to stick with it.
        May I ask how old you were when you learnt this and was there a trigger that created this learning experience?

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      2. It was just a few years ago, and I had sort of hit rock bottom when it comes to my anxiety levels. Or rather, the more appropriate metaphor to use would be Mount Everest, I suppose. 😉 I got laid off from a job I’d had for close to a decade, and I felt very lost, terrified, confused, insecure, etc. That was when I discovered Holosync meditation program. It promised to alleviate anxiety, among other things, so I decided to give it a go. And within the next few months, my personality literally changed. Decades of neurosis gradually dissolved into peace and gratitude. I have absorbed plenty of other personal growth material since then – but Holosync was the foundation which made the initial “attitude shift” possible. So the only discipline required was to actually listen to those audio tracks every day; as long as you do, the internal change sort of happens by itself. You don’t need to “force” yourself to believe anything; you can just sit back and watch yourself transform. It’s a fascinating journey of self-discovery, and I’m still on it. In fact, I hope it never ends. 😉

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